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      <title>Garlic Butter Prawns</title>
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      <pubDate>Fri, 21 Aug 2026 23:00:00 GMT</pubDate>
      <dc:creator>Puyu Wang</dc:creator>
      <category>Recipe</category>
      <description>I cooked this at a friend's place. According to myself and my friend, it was good.</description>
      <content:encoded>&lt;h1&gt;Garlic Butter Prawns&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;h2&gt;Ingredients&lt;/h2&gt;
&lt;ul&gt;
&lt;li&gt;50g butter&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Raw Prawns (peeled)&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Chopped Garlic (3 or 4 cloves)&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Mixed Herbs (might contain Thyme, Basil, Parsley...)&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Salt and Pepper&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Rosemary (we wanted to use this but didn't have any at the time, so we used mixed herbs instead)&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Chopped Onion (1)&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Starch powder&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;/ul&gt;
&lt;h2&gt;Pipeline&lt;/h2&gt;
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&lt;li&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Marinate:&lt;/strong&gt; Coat the prawns with starch powder and pepper, then marinate for 10 minutes.&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Fry:&lt;/strong&gt; Melt the butter in a pan over medium heat. Once melted, add the chopped garlic and cook for 1 minute. Then add the chopped onion. Cook for 1 or 2 minute. &lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Cook the prawns:&lt;/strong&gt; Add the raw prawns and fry until they turn pink/red. Add the mixed herbs and salt (and rosemary, if available), and stir well. Cook for 5 - 7 minutes in total. &lt;/li&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;I would definitely try again when I have rosemary.&lt;/p&gt;</content:encoded>
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      <title>Silver Age</title>
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      <pubDate>Fri, 17 Jul 2026 12:00:00 GMT</pubDate>
      <dc:creator>Puyu Wang</dc:creator>
      <category>Story</category>
      <description>A short story about a deduplication officer in a world where reality can duplicate, exploring themes of memory, choice, and the nature of reality.</description>
      <content:encoded>&lt;h1&gt;Silver Age&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;h2&gt;Puyu Wang&lt;/h2&gt;
&lt;h3&gt;1&lt;/h3&gt;
&lt;p&gt;In the spring 2050 a new file landed on my desk, covered with a stamp in red: DOUBLED. “DOUBLED” means the same event occurred twice. My job is to review these two versions of reality, and figure out which is real, and send them to the archive. The real one gets stamped as REAL. The other stamped as SHADOW.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;My name is Zhang San, 39, a deduplication officer. My mother thinks I am a civil servant. In a way, I am. Civil servants manage reality. I create the reality for them to manage. My occupation only came into being around 2048. A young occupation like this usually does not pay well, except mine actually does. No one really wants to do this. On average you visit a psychiatrist once every three years in this job. I've only been twice, exactly average. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Duplication began around 2046. A Beijing driver delivered the same bowl of soup to the same customer twice. The restaurant owner saw the driver took the soup, but 37 minutes later, the driver showed up, and the soup was still on the counter. He delivered it again. The chef remembered making one bowl of soup. The driver remembered delivering it once. Yet, there were two orders on the platform, two bowls of soup at the customer door step. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Soon it spread everywhere. An office worker drank the same coffee twice; the cup was cleared, then reappeared with coffee, hot. Police fined the same person twice for speeding, same time, same vehicle and same location. A couple got married twice, at the same venue, with the same guests, just on different dates. Everyone claimed there was only one wedding, however, no one can be certain which one was the one they went to.  &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;At first people assumed it was a data error. It wasn’t. Reality had begun to stutter — and a thing could repeat months, even a year, after. The State realized the danger. The laws might break down for it. If a marriage certificate is issued twice, is it one marriage or two? If a crime is committed twice, is it one crime or two? They have to only recognize one. The Calibration and Integrity Agency was founded, with three offices: Detection, which finds doubles; Deduplication, mine, which reviews and selects; and Archive. We maintain the archives simply because no one knows what else to do with them.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;My wife works in the Archive. Her job is simple: receive files and seal them. She is not supposed to read them. But my wife reads. Actually, all archivists read. No one can resist not to steal a glance. She does not talk it. The principle of Agency applies at our house as well – see it but don’t say it. But once she broke the rule. It was a snowy winter in Beijing. She came home, sat down on the sofa, and mentioned she sealed a wedding. She said, “But in the one version, the father never showed up.”
I asked if that was the real one, she said yes.  “...but in the shadow one — one day later than the real one — the father showed up.” After a long silence she continued, “The shadow one is better.” I said nothing. But I didn't sleep well that night. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h3&gt;2&lt;/h3&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Deduplication is about being correct rather than being better. Our Director Liang never made errors. He is 60 and retiring soon. Every day, 9 AM, he shows up, makes Goji Tea, turns on his computer and looks at the screen for the whole morning. He continues to look at the screen after lunch, until 6PM. He approves every report, agrees with every meeting, nods at every SHADOW ruling, “That makes a lot of sense.” he always says. He is a perfect civil servant who never errs. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;But he has mysteries.  One winter night I worked until 10PM. Passing his office, I saw the door ajar. Through the gap I can see the room was empty — not just unoccupied but bare. No desk, no chair, no computer, nothing. It was a completely bare empty room. I was shocked but I told myself it was just the light. The next morning, everything was normal, his chair, desk, computer, and himself. “Morning,” I said. I cannot say what I saw. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Deputy Director Jiang was a completely different sort of person. He is 44, looking for promotion. He needs achievements, improvements, results. However, at Deduplication, some improvements are not intended—the more shadows we send to the Archive, the more chaos it reveals in reality. That is a mark against stability. The only improveable statistic for him is accuracy. Often he asks, "Zhang San, made any wrong rulings lately?" and I say no, and he leaves disappointed.  &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h3&gt;3&lt;/h3&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Our work on ruling has threefold principles: how many people remember each version; how many digital traces there are; and the subject's own conviction — which version they would rather believe. These principles form the basis of our induction manual. The manual ends with a small print: Where conclusion can not be made, deduplication officer decides. Some people call it the conscience clause. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;An internal metric, the Ruling Accuracy, is reported to the Central Committee but never made public. It should stand at 100% — once a ruling is stamped, it becomes truth. However, the record shows about eighty-two percent of our REAL rulings are correct; fifteen percent are wrong — we stamped the true one SHADOW and the shadow REAL; and the remaining three percent are undecidable. Eighty-two, fifteen, three, added to exactly one hundred. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Sometimes I think the figures are too clean. Once I said this to my wife. "That's a good thing," she said. "It means someone's maintaining the decimal point." I asked who it was. She thought for a while, and said, "Just someone." Ever since, I often feel someone is there.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Fifteen percent wrong. That means of the two hundred-odd cases I rule each year, about thirty are wrong. I learned not to be curious about them. But a year ago I had a new colleague, Li Si, who is a bit different. He had a mathematics degree and could get into any department at the Agency. But he chose Deduplication because he said he wanted to know what makes things real. I told him he'd given up knowing the moment he came here. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h3&gt;4&lt;/h3&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Li Si’s first case is a man with two identical childhoods, in both of which there was a classmate, Xiao Fang, whom he never spoke to. Xiao Fang died in a car crash in one version; in the other she went to Shanghai and got married. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;The evidence was perfectly balanced. Xiao Fang died. But Xiao Fang is also living. He was stuck for two weeks. I said he had to make a decision now. "But whichever one I pick is real?" he asked. "On what grounds?" I said: you're a deduplication officer. 
Eventually he chose “went to Shanghai”, and wrote: “maybe the subject could meet Xiao Fang again. ” Director Liang read the report and clicked “Approve.”&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Months later Li Si asked me if our work was actually about choosing a more meaningful life. I said, “No, we are choosing a more helpful one.” &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;“Helpful for whom?” he asked. I did not answer. I do not know who needs to be helpful. He then asked, “Who do you think is making this happen?” &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I said, “ I do not know.” He then asked if I would like to know. I told him the conversation was not helpful.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Li Si moved to another department shortly after a year. When I asked Director Liang about it, he said, “I did not see it”. 
My wife asked me the same question that day. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;“I don’t know,” I said. “Director Liang did not see it.”&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h3&gt;5&lt;/h3&gt;
&lt;p&gt;The case on my desk is from Mr. Wong of Nanjing. He remembered his father died of cancer in 2047 in Nanjing Hospital. Yet later he found a collection of photos showing his father receiving final treatment at Peking Union Hospital in 2048, where he died of the same disease. Only one version should be real. He submitted the case to us. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I asked him which one he remembered the best. He could not tell. He remembered spending an entire year in Nanjing caring for his father. Yet he also remembered being in Beijing. “Am I getting crazy?” he asked. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;He was not. Both hospitals had complete records, including death certificates bearing the same ID: “104”. 
“Which one do you wish to be real?”&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;“I…don't know,” he said. “they are both real.”&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;But I had to choose. I stamped the real 2048 record. It was just closer to him. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h3&gt;6&lt;/h3&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I have never told anyone, not even my wife, about the number 104. I am almost certain I have seen it in another case. But I learned long ago not to be too curious. Then, a few weeks ago, an old man stopped me outside a teahouse. It was just after dusk and I had a long shift. He looks around 60, wearing a Sun Yat-sen suit. He asked me if I was “Comrade Zhang San” and I said I was and asked how I could help. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;He answered, “You ruled on my daughter's case. You thought she went to Shanghai. You were wrong.” I remember the case. It is Li Si’s first. “It wasn't me, Sir,” I said. “My colleague handled it. You can apply for reassessment.” &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;“No, it was you. I only wanted to tell you that you were wrong,” he said. “I do not need a reassessment.” I tried to explain that his daughter is alive in Shanghai. “She is not my daughter!” he snapped, cutting me off. “But I just wanted to tell you that you were wrong.” &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;He shook my hand and walked away. That night I mentioned it to my wife. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;“Maybe Li Si made a mistake,” I said.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;“Li Si who?” she asked.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h3&gt;7&lt;/h3&gt;
&lt;p&gt;104 really feels like a seed lodged in my mind. I just cannot remember where I could have seen it over and over again. The sense of familiarity grew stronger and stronger.  &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Then one day a notification appeared on my screen: No. 104 Nanjing – Mr Wong – Request for Reassessment. That moment hit me. I suddenly remembered. It was a few weeks before I joined the Agency. Sitting in a teahouse, I had seen an old man in a Sun Yat-sen suit speaking to a young man outside a teahouse. They shook hands and parted ways. I was at table 104. Then I realized why Director Liang never makes mistakes, why he only approves, and why his office is empty. It is the only useful thing to do. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;That night I just could not stop thinking about what it all meant. I wonder if I have ever been in some notifications. I wonder if I am helpful. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;“Still awake?” My wife murmured. “You should really get some sleep.” –  then she drifted back into dreams. I listened to her breathing in the darkness. Gentle. Even. Steady. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;The next morning, she was up before me, cooking congee. It was an ordinary morning. Outside the window, the Beijing sky was a clear, washed-clean blue. “Can you help me with the pancake?” she asked. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;And for that moment, it felt a little real—not because I knew it was real, but because it was ours.&lt;/p&gt;</content:encoded>
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      <title>悼念贾舜尧</title>
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      <pubDate>Mon, 25 Nov 2024 12:00:00 GMT</pubDate>
      <dc:creator>Puyu Wang</dc:creator>
      <category>中文</category>
      <description>贾舜尧，一个才华横溢的年轻人，不幸离世。</description>
      <content:encoded>&lt;h1&gt;悼念贾舜尧&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p&gt;上个周日，11月10日，天气终于转好，终于能看见一点阳光，我之前看新闻声称英国在之前的11天里，阳光总计只有18分钟。这个数字是不是准确我不知道，但是我确实不记得上次看见阳光是什么时候了。这一天也是英国的纪念日: &lt;em&gt;Remembrance Sunday&lt;/em&gt;，为了纪念阵亡将士，学院宿舍附近的公交车暂停了服务，我只好步行前往开会。如果没有打开微信，这一天或许只是普通的一天，最让人意外事情，就是清晨的阳光。&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;然而，当我打开微信，映入眼帘的却是哲学公众号工作群、闲聊群中涌现的许多消息——要知道，这些群平时几乎不怎么活跃。群里说，我们公众号的发起人之一贾舜尧永远地离开了我们，但是我们要让公众号活下去。其实，就在前一天，我已经在另一个群里看到了他失联的消息，也知道有一些朋友已经在找他，并且看到了他最后一条朋友圈:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;今生苦短，来世再见。&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;然而当时，我的内心似乎还未能真正接受他会离开的可能性。我天真地以为，这更大概率上是他的求救信号——他会得到帮助，最终一切都会好起来。虽然我知道他的境况并不是他想要的理想生活，但是我也好几年没有听到过他向我提到生活中不如意了。他给我的印象，从来不是一个会寻短见的人。&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;和许多朋友一样，我和他也相识于哲学公众号。有一个朋友问我有没有兴趣参与一起做一个哲学公众号。当我正居家备考音乐学的研究生，也算是有很多自由的时间，我就欣然加入了。就这样他把我介绍给了贾舜尧。当我看到《想当国师的哲学家们》这个公众号名称时，我其实并不太理解，我感觉大概是和“哲人王”这样的概念有点关系。不过，如果我是哲学家，我倒不会想当国师。用这个名字去做公众号，我还是有点意外的。不过我更惊讶的是他从哪里找来的文章。我刚开始在公众号做的工作其实就是编辑推送文章，贾舜尧会把要推送的文章发给我，然后我在公众号的后台排版、推送。所以，他当时给我最初印象是一个意气风发有才华的人。后来我得知他在考北京大学的哲学研究生，我对他佩服更多了一点——我当时考研择校的时候，根本没有看985以上的学校。后来，我在公众号的参与的事务越来越多，我对他的了解也越来越多，他也会把自己的心境分享给我。他在我眼中的形象也逐渐有血有肉起来，，虽然我们一直没有见过面，但是他在我的心中，已经不单单是个网友或者一个一起做公众号的人了，而像是一个多年没过面的老朋友，&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;把公众号坚持做起来并不容易，我经历过的最困难的事情，大概发在20年。因为大家对公众号本身的理解和未来发展方向产生了分歧，公众号因此经历了不小的动荡。几经调和，分裂成了一个主号、一个副号。难能可贵的是，贾舜尧在，公众号一直在坚持。后来，我的学业越来越繁重，我对公众号的参与越来越少，我和贾舜尧的沟通也越来越少。有关他的消息，我更多地是通过朋友圈了解到。我只知道他去了事业单位，但我不知道事业单位可能不是他的理想——这一点我是从他人口中听说的。我想对于20-30岁之间的人，生活可能在短短几年里发生完全的变化——我本人就是这样。但我对他最近的变化，却知之甚少。这种不了解让我不知所措。他去世的消息对我而言仿佛是两个重击：第一个是他已经离开了这个世界，第二个是他选择了亲手结束自己的生命。最让我难以理解和接受的，其实是第二个。&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;我在群里说，我想给他写传记，不光是想给他在这个世界上留下更多的痕迹，也是真想知道，他这么做的原因，是什么促成他走上这样的道路。我忽然感觉我从未真的认识过他，我只是认识了他的小小的一面，但我从来不知道完整的他在承受着什么。&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;有的朋友表达了希望他的灵魂在另一个世界安息的愿望，他自己也说，&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;今生苦短，来世再见。&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;我虽是不可知论者，无法确信是否真有来世，或是另一个世界的存在。但在此时此刻，我觉得如果真有那么一个地方，能让他的灵魂解脱，那将是一件美好的事。&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;王普宇&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;2024年11月 写于牛津&lt;/p&gt;</content:encoded>
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      <title>Note for 24-07-24</title>
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      <pubDate>Wed, 24 Jul 2024 12:00:00 GMT</pubDate>
      <dc:creator>Puyu Wang</dc:creator>
      <category>Blog</category>
      <description>Note for 24-07-24 updates</description>
      <content:encoded>&lt;h1&gt;Note for 24-07-24&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;h2&gt;Recent thought on who I am&lt;/h2&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Am I a Kantian? If I am, what kind of Kantian am I? I cannot claim to be knowledgeable about Kantian philosophy. 
However, I truely believe that it is, by default, the duty of human to do good things. 
Yet, I do not have confidence in the autonomy of individuals. 
My skepticism arises from the fact that I often find people are not truly free.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h2&gt;Video by Zizek&lt;/h2&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I found this video interesting. &lt;/p&gt;
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      <title>Chinese Coinage</title>
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      <pubDate>Sat, 20 Jul 2024 12:00:00 GMT</pubDate>
      <dc:creator>Puyu Wang</dc:creator>
      <category>Notes</category>
      <description>A note on reading a book about Chinese Coinage</description>
      <content:encoded>&lt;h1&gt;Chinese Coinage&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Recently I have been reading this book &lt;a href="https://book.douban.com/subject/35724195/"&gt;《中国货币史》&lt;/a&gt; to understand Chinese Coinage for my PhD work -- creating numismatic knowledge model for Chinese Coins. 
I will keep some note here for reference.&lt;/p&gt;</content:encoded>
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      <title>Reading</title>
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      <pubDate>Sat, 20 Jul 2024 12:00:00 GMT</pubDate>
      <dc:creator>Puyu Wang</dc:creator>
      <category>Notes</category>
      <description>A brief description of my document.</description>
      <content:encoded>&lt;h1&gt;Reading&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;h2&gt;梁惠王上&lt;/h2&gt;
&lt;p&gt;孟子見梁惠王。王曰：「叟不遠千里而來，亦將有以利吾國乎？」  &lt;/p&gt;
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Mencius went to see king Hui of Liang. The king said, 'Venerable sir, since you have not counted it far to come here, a distance of a thousand li, may I presume that you are provided with counsels to profit my kingdom?'  

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&lt;p&gt;孟子對曰：「王何必曰利？亦有仁義而已矣。王曰『何以利吾國』？大夫曰『何以利吾家』？士庶人曰『何以利吾身』？上下交征利而國危矣。萬乘之國弒其君者，必千乘之家；千乘之國弒其君者，必百乘之家。萬取千焉，千取百焉，不為不多矣。苟為後義而先利，不奪不饜。未有仁而遺其親者也，未有義而後其君者也。王亦曰仁義而已矣，何必曰利？」    &lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;Mencius replied, 'Why must your Majesty use that word "profit?" What I am provided with, are counsels to benevolence and righteousness, and these are my only topics. 'If your Majesty say, "What is to be done to profit my kingdom?" the great officers will say, "What is to be done to profit our families?" and the inferior officers and the common people will say, "What is to be done to profit our persons?" Superiors and inferiors will try to snatch this profit the one from the other, and the kingdom will be endangered. In the kingdom of ten thousand chariots, the murderer of his sovereign shall be the chief of a family of a thousand chariots. In the kingdom of a thousand chariots, the murderer of his prince shall be the chief of a family of a hundred chariots. To have a thousand in ten thousand, and a hundred in a thousand, cannot be said not to be a large allotment, but if righteousness be put last, and profit be put first, they will not be satisfied without snatching all. There never has been a benevolent man who neglected his parents. There never has been a righteous man who made his sovereign an after consideration. Let your Majesty also say, "Benevolence and righteousness, and let these be your only themes." Why must you use that word - "profit?".'&lt;/p&gt;
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      <title>LifeWriting 课程小结</title>
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      <pubDate>Thu, 10 Sep 2020 12:00:00 GMT</pubDate>
      <dc:creator>Puyu Wang</dc:creator>
      <category>中文</category>
      <description>Life Writing课程小结</description>
      <content:encoded>&lt;h1&gt;Life Writing 课程小结&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p&gt;这个暑假，我有幸入选了岭南大学的暑期交流生课程项目；当我知道授课的老师是黄运特教授之后，我毫不犹豫地选择了Life Writing 课程。 原因有两点：一，我研究生所读的专业是音乐文献编译（英文方向），虽然和外语学院的翻译专业还是有区别的，但是这个专业也涉及大量的翻译与写作，而我也曾经参与过传记、自传这类属于Life Writing范畴的翻译与校对。我想借参与英文写作类课程之机提高我的写作水平，尤其是在叙事方面。二 ，我本人的学术目标一直是将中国古代的音乐文献翻译为英文。这一点很多人给我泼过冷水，认为翻译的目标语言最好是母语，我最好把精力放在英译中上，中国人做中译英是先天不如英文母语者的。但作为一代移民作家，黄运特的母语是中文，写作用的语言则是英文。我也听说过有很多作家，用非母语写作并获得认可的，比如Joseph Conrad、林语堂。但是我对自己翻译文稿，总是不那么满意；所以我迫切地想知道，用外语写作这件事，究竟还可行不可行，如果可以，应该如何做。  &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;在上第一节课的时候，老师就提醒说，对于一门两周多的课程，期望不要太大了：虽然已经排满了十几节课，但课时仍很有限。第一节课的时候，老师把我们每天要读的文章、要完成的作业等等信息用word文档发了下去。我们的作业分为好多项：两篇传记文章，要求一长一短，但其中一篇需要是自传；改写一篇介绍人物的英文文章；一个Presentation；自己设计一个网页。其中，Presentation 是要介绍自己如何构思并写作长文章的。而这些作业，都要在短短的两周内完成。&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;老师第一周发下来的文章，主要是为了让我们看看什么样的文章是Life Writing。数量上共有六篇，可以分为两类：一类是由文言文翻译为英文的，比如陶渊明的《五柳先生传》、金圣叹的《不亦快哉三十三则》，另一类是直接用英文写成的。  &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;文言文文章中，我印象比较深刻的是金圣叹的《不亦快哉三十三则》，由三十三个有趣的小故事组成，每一个故事的结尾，都有一个“不亦快哉！”。英文版是林语堂翻译的，但是在第一次阅读的时候，我没有读过中文版，也并不知道译者是谁，因为老师发的文本里并没有写译者的姓名。我阅读该文的第一印象就是译者的文笔非常好，既保留了金圣叹的幽默风格，英文也非常流畅自然。老师在讲解的时候说，他比较喜欢这篇文章的风格，我们的短文章就可以参考这个风格来写。我们甚至也可以直接写一个“某某某几十几则”。这些轶事和趣闻，被老师称为“anecdote”。  &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;我们读的直接用英文写成的文章，比如Sui Sin Far（水仙花）和Zora Neale Hurston(佐拉·尼尔·赫斯顿)的文章，给我的感觉是种族的意识、身份认同占了很大的一部分，甚至是文章的精神内核的基础。举例来说，Sui Sin Far作为一个中国和英国混血作家，自幼在欧美长大，她关于自己生活回忆的文章中，有很多故事就是和她的中国血统的身份有直接关系，她精神世界也是矛盾的，她写到她觉得自己既不完全属于西方，也不属于东方。想必这样的文学只有在异乡长大的人才能写得出来，Sui Sin Far 小时因为被说是中国人而和其他小朋友打架、妹妹因为某些原因自称日本人这类经历，是我从未经历过、甚至从未想象过的。我在成长的时候，从未想过自己和别人有身份上的不同，种族、或者民族可以说是个毫不起眼的问题。黄教授也直言，在去美国之前，他自己也不知道自己是“黄种人”、亚洲人。这几乎可以说是一种被“强加”的社会标签。我们后来又读到了另一个亚裔作家创作的The Woman Warrior 部分章节，也带有很强的亚裔身份认同的话题属性。如果老师不是刻意选取这种题材的文章，这很可能是亚裔美国文学的共同特点了，不过，在这些故事中我确实很难找到共鸣点。  &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;第二周的课程变得更有趣起来。我们完成了前期的作业，老师也给出了点评。我们也在讨论Presentation 的问题。但是我自己的作业的规划完成的不太顺利。我最早的计划试图将所有作业都围绕着一个核心来规划，比如将两篇传记文章作为一个整体来写作，都用第一人称，既可以分开阅读，也可以连起来阅读。长的一篇作为自传，短的一篇写一个身边的人。我最早的写作对象是我的室友，但是我没来及在截止时间之前收集够足够的材料用以支撑我的写作。在Deadline的前两天，我发现我无法再写下去了。我只好换成我的备用的对象来写：我写了一位对我影响很大的作曲家。因为各类的音乐史是我的本科和研究生阶段的主要课程之一，所以叙述音乐家的生平再加上他身边的一些小故事，对我说还是很容易的，很快我就完成了。但是我最初的计划就行不通了。  &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;交完短文章之后的没几天，就轮到我的Presentation了，那几天我一直思索我如何进行接下来的作业。按照安排，那天我是第一个讲演的。我也如实地把我的无法实现的计划讲了一遍，但也讲了讲新计划。我讲了头两篇作业分别描写了两个对我很有影响的人，但一个是数学家伽罗华，一个是音乐家勋伯格。而我自传的主题，也是分别代表音乐和数学的感受和认识。受到复调小说的启发，我将模仿奏鸣曲式的手法（这个曲式可以有两个主题）来写作。那天黄教授对我的想法似乎很感兴趣。不过，当时我的心里其实是没底的，PPT上虽然已经有了，但是文章还没写多少，这个写法能不能行，我还不知道。最终我其实顺利地写完了，不过这都是后话了。    &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;第二周阅读的材料也比第一周有趣一些。因为我们阅读的内容主要是黄教授自己的作品，因此有幸可以听到作者亲自对作品进行详细的讲解，甚至还能和作者进行讨论。我们主要看的是《陈查理传奇》和Inseparable这两部作品，内容其实都是华裔离散者的故事。虽然黄教授认为美国上世纪三四十年代的陈查理的故事与电影（他说鲁迅先生在上海的时候甚至也喜欢看）不是对华人种族歧视的产物，但是陈查理总能让我联想起傅满洲。黄教授还给我们分享了他的出版经历，从第一次见到陈查理的小说，到《陈查理传奇》成书，历时十年之久。这不是一件容易的事情：除了写作之外还需要搜集资料、到陈查理的原型郑阿平的居住地（夏威夷）考察、完稿后和出版商交涉等等。   &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;短短的十几天的课程很快结束了。诚然，我的写作水平不可能在这十几天里就有翻天覆地的变化；但我觉得我最大的收获是看到了之前不可能见到的东西：水仙花、陈查理、Woman Warrior等等。但最重要的是，对于写作这件事情，黄教授娓娓道来、谈笑风生的样子，让我觉得，我的理想并非遥不可及。&lt;/p&gt;</content:encoded>
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      <pubDate>Sun, 01 Jan 2017 12:00:00 GMT</pubDate>
      <dc:creator>Puyu Wang</dc:creator>
      <category>中文</category>
      <description>這些天我一直在看SCHOENBERG的書</description>
      <content:encoded>&lt;h3&gt;看勳伯格的和聲學&lt;/h3&gt;
&lt;p&gt;這些天我一直在看SCHOENBERG的書，他寫的太棒了。我連著三天在琴房裡看到夜裡十二點才回去。
我能感受到勳伯格非常腹黑。天才又腹黑。比如：勳伯格在某處說大意說：某一天，研究大腦和意識的科學可能可以完全解釋音樂的原理，到那時，目前（1911年）的音樂理論將被證明是錯誤的。因為現在的理論都不"科學"。任何人的理論，嚴格來說，不可能比我勳伯格更加"正確"多少，所以我的這本和聲學想怎麼寫就怎麼寫。因為大家的理論都是"前科學"時代的產物。&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h3&gt;（反正大家都是用"玄學"來解釋音樂，誰也不比誰更"科學")&lt;/h3&gt;
&lt;p&gt;他可以把它的書寫得非常通俗易懂，但是他沒有。還在某個地方給讀者表示了歉意。還說：我知道這本書，對於平均水平的音樂家來說，是比較難以讀懂的。我在等待大家都能看懂的那一天。&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h3&gt;(然而現在一百多年已經過去，他還沒有等到）&lt;/h3&gt;
&lt;p&gt;勳伯格不止一次預測失敗。他表示不久的將來，大家會放棄"協和""不協和"的區分概念。然而現在都沒有。
勳伯格認為，國樂和某些其他地區（比如阿拉伯，日本）的音樂是低發展等級的音樂，不值得作為材料被分析，發展出和聲學理論。（這與很多人都想發都不同）
勳伯格有時非常囉嗦。可能是我看這本書的時候已經是高年級的學生。有時候我覺得非常明顯的事情，勳伯格就要用非常多的筆墨來分析。（但這些分析對pupils 非常重要，如果讓我寫一本和聲學，我可能比他更囉嗦）
其實我沒有必要全文通讀，但是他的語言太精采太美妙，僅僅作為文學作品，都值得一讀。在此非常感謝Roy E.Carter ，德文翻英文的功力深厚，還在部分地方標注出來德文原文，讓我更容易理解勳伯格的原意。
如果只是準備考試，可以看實用性強的書，這本和聲學學術性太強，個人風格太明確。他說的東西，諸位的和聲老師未必同意。你手上不能只有一本和聲書。
勳伯格認為，屬音（dominant）這個叫法根本不對。即使把屬音的屬字看成是比喻，也是不對勁的。Dominant 明明是 governing 的意思，按照勳伯格的理論，起到governing 功能的明明是基音。但是他又說，既然大家都是這樣叫的，那我也這樣吧 叫吧。不然我發明一種新的叫法，大家會被迷惑&lt;/p&gt;</content:encoded>
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